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Hostility​/​/​Heartbreak (split w/ Diego Galvan)

by Assembly of Arsonists

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ive met people so great that i wish i never met them because they want to be close to me and ill never let them because i know im incapable of anything that most great people will love anything i do is never enough I'm setting out to prove that I've got nothing to prove, and I'll prove it. Don't assume it's got something to do with you. And just for something to do, I've set out with nothing to do, and I'll do it. Maybe I want nothing to do with you. sometimes somethings end sooner than you want them too but that doesnt mean it was too soon or not soon enough sure enough ive had enough of never enough I never miss an opportunity to fuck an opportunity up. I've had enough of never enough
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it's not the gun, it's not the death it's the power, the breath on my kneck and the knees on my chest the chains on my wrists and the sick twisted captivity because we're all fucking violent, we all fucking die, but your imunity is systematized and i'd rather figuratively kill the badge, but that pesky asshole that's behind it is in the way but maybe one day more cop-filled graves will fade the power of the badge away wish i could say one day this all won't mean anything
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oh you sick sick sick sickeningly teary-eyed sweet little rat oh you tricky trick trick trickster, you, sullied and can't take it back aint it maddeningly true that whatever pulls you through the light lacking rooms in your mind is a disciplined claw gripping, ripping you apart, that you've grown on your own over time now, there are just some things that you like, whether you like it or not oh you suitable, sweet saccharine and sugary unsuspecting cat oh you Miss Missy Ms. mischevious thing, with a heart that's intact i don't know what's more adorable, new horrible indulgence or the prior experience you lack lights dimmed, eyes closed, attached to the collaborative act of guiding knives to your back now, there are just some things that you like, whether you like it or not behind closed eyes behind closed doors behind closed mouths and closed blinds, things are hiding inside subtle resignations, lost parts of your mind screaming "oh god no" and "oh god yes" at the same time, at the same time now, there are just some things that you like, whether you like it or not
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such a wonderous sense of magnificence, the illuminated sky blanketing such wretchedness, like a perfect lover in denial that alas, the lasting grasp of passion can but clasp a cloud and ever tries to hold so tight what cannot be held down sits the effervescent, ever present essence of life's grin upon the nascent dawn of fondness gone and what has been a story told, so wonderful, still gets tiresome and old a splendid tome, deep carved in stone held long enough erodes & at last, our past attachments smash like glass on crashing cars as my golden piss is hissing underneath the shining stars
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It's hard to know I'll never hear those words again When I was down you'd always help me up my friend Oh how I miss you now I only wish I'd missed you more then It always scared me, how close we got Always knew it'd be my fault that we fell apart Put the blame on me I accept it now I only wish I'd accepted it when I was your friend Now every memory's a bad time, your fucking letters make me cry I feel lost and alone without you Thought you would always be by my side Now these words roll off my tongue Much easier than I'd like to admit I'm sure you remember bad times I wish we could make more good Lately I've had trouble sleeping The thought of you keeps me awake I throw every good thing away What's wrong with me for fucks sake I need to wake up and put my life back together Need to put this drink down you'll always deserve better... Now when I look into your eyes all I see are bluer skies Now when I look into my eyes all I see is my wasted life Now every night I can't tell if I am lonely Or am I pushing my friends away? I get your life has been better without me But without my best friend my life's been empty
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I wake up every day with no smile on my face I can't find a reason to get out of bed Because I outside I'll face addictions and depression And everything around me will be dying And I don't want to see that place Well I've been living the same day for at least three years The only thing that's changed is the amount of tears Because I have lost the ability to feel anything, anymore! I'll tell you about some bluer skies And about how none of them are mine And when I wake up feeling worthless Like giving efforts is pointless knowing that I'll never be happy No matter what I do, but you know it is true that I'm still going to try Somewhere over the rainbow Way up high And the dreams that I dreamed of Are now a lullaby To help me get to sleep at night Because the anxiety I have never seems to help at any given time So if these blue birds can fly Then why? Oh why? Can't I?
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You hate the way I talk to you because every sentence ends in "I love you" you hate the way that I stare at you because I could do it all night long She hates the way I talk about you her every statement screams that it's not true she hates the way that I lose my mind and how I cry about you all the time I hate that I can never set my mind straight and I hate those thoughts that make me stay up late and I am thinking that there's going to be a day that I wake up realizing that living life means not living life this way I hate the way I talk to you because every sentence ends in "I love you" I hate the way that I stare at you because I could do it all night long and I hate the way that I feel lied to every time you say "I love you too" I hate that I can never sent my mind straight and I fucking hate those thoughts that make me stay up late I'm hating that there's never going to be a day that I wake up realizing that living life means not living life this way
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I'm here again, I'm lost my friend I'm on and off and all of my care is spent These years are gone, it's been prolonged The stress has been eating my soul away I cannot breathe, this nicotine, it tastes so sweet but I know it's killing me Some times I dream and make believe that I'll see something inside myself others see but I never feel I'm falling now, I don't know how To get back up I'll lay here on the ground I want to sleep my life away, but to my friends is what I'll never say They don't always know that I'm fading away I feel it now like a bullet in my brain Life feels stressful and I want to run away I've been here before, but now the score Is stacked against me and now it feels like war Please leave me, I do not need a friend to listen I found all I need is sleep I'm sorry but solitude would be a relief

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HEARTBREAK//HOSTILITY is a split with another Phoenix, AZ musician, Diego Galvan.

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released April 1, 2017

Recorded, mixed, mastered, produced, and tolerated by Trevor Read

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Assembly of Arsonists Phoenix, Arizona

From the explosions of domestic terrorism, to the implosions of domestic relationships, Assembly Of Arsonists has run the gamut of controversy in the underground punk scene of Phoenix, AZ.

The 5 piece piano-driven, cabaret-style punk rock ensemble is readying their best-yet assortment of apocalyptic anthems, The End Is Dear.
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